Dude- only God knows how important they are to me. Like all of them!! And I need to be agree that sometimes I "checked out" and I forgot about some of them. Like I was so into passion with that one friend and I forgot to talk with the other one.
I know! That sucks. Like super suckie mollie. Even if I were her, I would be sad cause I was left out. Like the fak dude. Why are you doing this to me. You only cared about her. Are we even friends anymore?
I am not going to defend myself this time because I know that was my fault. I admitted that. But that didnt mean that you are nothing to me now. Especially 5 of you meant a lot to me. I really hope we will be able to stay together till we get old, inshaAllah.
Many people always think that I only cared for my 4 darlings, but hey gotta admit! They are pretty special to me hehe. People like Izzati, Alia, Ismul, Ain, Hana, Amira, Najihah and GOD! SO MANY MORE. I DO CARE ABOUT YOU PEOPLE!!!
No i dont want you guys to get hurt! No! Its not okay to get humiliated by others and no! It is just not okay for me looking at you guys get hurt. Okay?
Back to the topic, sometimes I checked out and forgot to check in back. I am bad I know. But I made mistakes and I really want to change that. Cause I know that we used to talk like- ohh she only wants to be with herrr, she didnt care about us! And now I left you out.
That was the last time I would be doing that inshaAllah. Just know, I love you guys so much equally. I just show that by different ways.
I learn that we must always try to heal the wound and thats ok if the wound leaves a scar so that it would remind us what we done before. So when we were adults, we would tell our kids that we went through many hardships together, we fought and sometimes we all used to feel the left out thingie. And it is okay as long as your best friend wants to try to do the best after that. It is okay to remind them that you feel left out.
Dont hide it inside or you will harm yourself. That is what we are going to tell our kids, promise?
P/s dont let me be the only one "who pushes the swing" cause I will get tired if Im the only one who wants to try. Let we all take turns on pushing the swing okay? Love you.
Xoxo
Asmaa
