What friends are for?

I watched many drama and shows about friendship and I always wonder how am I going to survive this world? Like- am I still going to be friends with them? Or we just drift apart because of our choices in life?

Dude- only God knows how important they are to me. Like all of them!! And I need to be agree that sometimes I "checked out" and I forgot about some of them. Like I was so into passion with that one friend and I forgot to talk with the other one.

I know! That sucks. Like super suckie mollie. Even if I were her, I would be sad cause I was left out. Like the fak dude. Why are you doing this to me. You only cared about her. Are we even friends anymore?

I am not going to defend myself this time because I know that was my fault. I admitted that. But that didnt mean that you are nothing to me now. Especially 5 of you meant a lot to me. I really hope we will be able to stay together till we get old, inshaAllah.

Many people always think that I only cared for my 4 darlings, but hey gotta admit! They are pretty special to me hehe. People like Izzati, Alia, Ismul, Ain, Hana, Amira, Najihah and GOD! SO MANY MORE. I DO CARE ABOUT YOU PEOPLE!!!

No i dont want you guys to get hurt! No! Its not okay to get humiliated by others and no! It is just not okay for me looking at you guys get hurt. Okay?

Back to the topic, sometimes I checked out and forgot to check in back. I am bad I know. But I made mistakes and I really want to change that. Cause I know that we used to talk like- ohh she only wants to be with herrr, she didnt care about us! And now I left you out.

That was the last time I would be doing that inshaAllah. Just know, I love you guys so much equally. I just show that by different ways.

I learn that we must always try to heal the wound and thats ok if the wound leaves a scar so that it would remind us what we done before. So when we were adults, we would tell our kids that we went through many hardships together, we fought and sometimes we all used to feel the left out thingie. And it is okay as long as your best friend wants to try to do the best after that. It is okay to remind them that you feel left out.

Dont hide it inside or you will harm yourself. That is what we are going to tell our kids, promise?

P/s dont let me be the only one "who pushes the swing" cause I will get tired if Im the only one who wants to try. Let we all take turns on pushing the swing okay? Love you.

Xoxo
Asmaa

Seventeen!

Assalamualaikum and a veryyyy good night. Hahaha

Okay, so harini 2nd January 2016.
Wahh. Aku dah 17 wehhh. 17. Omegerdd.

Looking at my past, knowing that I've been through many bad experiences and good ones, entah la rasa macam. Huwaa power jugak kau ni.

Tapi rasa nak gelak pun ada sbb baru 17. Kalau Allah tetapkan, mungkin ada banyak tahun lagi yg perlu aku hadapi dkt hidup ni. Huhuhu.

17 tahun ni. Aku ada azam baru. Well yg paling nak, mestilah 11A+!
Serious. Tahun ni tak nak memain sangat dah.
Belajar erti penat. Kalau penat bukan maknanya kena stop, tapi kena slow down sekejap lepastu teruskan lagi. Eh betul ke? Hahaha.

Yg pasti, inshaAllah Im working harder than everrrr and Im gonna get straight A+ inshaAllah.

Nothing is impossible kan?

Oh lepastu another one, aku nak dapat my ideal weight on 1st June. Pleaseeee. Tolonglahh. I've been working out a bit and control makan la sikit. Some suggest me to try atkins diet. Alah yg mkn protein je tu. Mmg la mcm hm why not. Tapi nanti dulu la kot. Hehe. Bukan apa. Lets try apa yg aku tgh buat skrg ni dulu at least for a month, kalau ada hasil why not. Kalau takde baru pergi ke plan B.

Tbh, aku jealous gilaaaa dgn gadis gadis yg makan mcm gajah ni tp badan halus mcm cicak. Geram ok. Dalam badan kau simpan jin ke apa. Huhu.

Lagipun siapa tak sedih when someone said that you are an obese walaupun time tu dia ber"jenaka" sahaja. Tapi still sedih la. I still in overweight phase and akan turun ke fasa normal beberapa bulan lagi inshaAllah. (Pls doa supaya pelajaran tak tinggal. I srsly need to make a schedule to handle with my daily activities hihi)

Ok tp kena ingat, niat nak kurus bukan sbb nak pakai baju yg perghh juga bukan utk kasi org perghhh tapi sebab aku nak sihat.

Im going to use the same body for who knows maybe more than 50 years. So jaga la kesihatan badan tu baik baik. Doa kan ok? Tak nak sakit sakit.

Ada banyak lagi azam tapi i simpan dulu ok? Malu la hehehee (padahal bkn ada org baca pun lol)

Alright itu aje kot buat masa skrg.

Have a great year and may this year, your relationship with Allah are even better than before and will continue to be even betterrr till the end of our lives Amin!